Subhekshya's blog

Let me share with you a very interesting piece of information. Professor Simon Critchley from New York City's New School offers classes on writing suicide note to students as part of a month long series of performances, installations and lectures called the school of death. He believes that; the only way to really learn how to live is to prepare to die. He said that if people were more comfortable talking about death, there might be a fewer suicides. He initiates discussion on the topic by reading out the suicide notes of some of the notable personalities- from Kurt Kobain to Adolf Hitler.  I did some basic research on how, why and what of suicide.  I was amazed to discover the single most important fact- Just as any other normal disease, suicide is preventive .  According to Dr. Alex Lickerman, one of the reasons of people attempting suicide is because they're crying out for help and don't know how else to get it...

When I look back at my life, there’s not a single moment that I would change. I don’t wanna jinx it by saying, but I am in love with my life.  Did I have a fairy tale story? –No. Was my life perfect?? -Indeed not. Like everyone else, I had my share of pain. I failed a number of times.  I failed to get through the medical college although my only persistent dream since childhood was to be a paediatrician (Short term dreams included marrying a Spanish Guy, being the next Jodie Foster after watching Silence of the lambs or being adopted by Bill and Melinda) To see my only dream get shattered was like being judged and told that ‘You are not good enough’.  It echoed in my ears for so long that sometimes it was hard to hear anything else.  I failed in my CA finals too (However, it’s worth mentioning that there’s a saying- If Jesus has never failed; he must try CA). I have failed in numerous assignments at work.  I have failed to meet the expectations of many peopl...

I don’t know what my school mates call me at school. I bet it must be something like – ‘lady hulk’ or ‘the ugly duckling’. The only time a last bencher guy talked to me was when he needed info about some good looking girl in my class. I am just 15 but I feel like a complete disaster.  I am always having a bad hair day; I don’t have a perfect set of teeth and my mother tells me time and again that the only thing I am good at, is my study and if I give up the only thing I am good at, I will end up nowhere because I am neither good at work nor am I as pretty as the other girls my age. I am not 60yrs, however my parents and teachers tell me all the time to cut down on the food that I eat.  To tell you the truth, I love to eat. I love chocolates and ice creams. I love doughnuts and pizza and I am always ready for a mid-night snack. Yes, I am a bit chubby and that’s the reason why my school mates call me by some lame names like lady hulk. It’s not that hulk is lame, coz I l...

One of my colleagues broke up with her long time boyfriend. She said that her boyfriend was relocated to some Middle East country and had no intentions to return any time soon.  So, they decided that they would break up instead of waiting for their relationship to fall apart and destroying every good memory they had when they were actually in love.  When I asked her whether she was heartbroken, she replied ‘I am, but it’s for a better good’. There are so many couples, both married and unmarried who are in a long distance relationship, as long as 10 years or even more. All they long is a better tomorrow.  They live their life expecting a better future for themselves or their children.  And there are people like my colleague who believes in ‘living in the moment’. Does long distance relationship actually work?? As I pondered deep, I was clueless.  Being in a long distance relationship is not easy.  It’s actually terrible coz you want someone to h...

I always believed in happy endings. It was fate that I met a girl like you.  I still remember the first time I saw you. May be it was love at first sight coz you mesmerised me.  I was so desperate to get your name and number coz I was scared that I could never see you again. But as fate would have it, you not only gave your number but your personal details starting from educational background to marital status (by handing me your resume for the job that we advertised). It was our destiny that you were appointed for the vacant post. I won’t deny that I was the one who insisted my boss on recruiting you (for which I could have added one or more qualifications than stated in your resume). I still remember the first date that we went, you and me, to a dinner in this fabulous place (P.S. with hundred of our office colleagues in an office retreat).  How can I forget the way you beautifully moved along with the song that was being played? I don’t know what was more beaut...

I was passing by the Arrow outlet in Indiranagar when I caught the glimpse of the most beautiful thing I have seen since a long time and I instantly fell in love with it. It was a white and a black dress and I knew I had to have it.  I took it to the changing room and as soon as I put it on, I was possessed. It was a feeling that something has taken a hold on me and compelling me to hand over my credit card to the gentleman, that too with a feeling of having won a lottery.    Like exercise is to body and reading to mind, shopping is to heart (especially to women). In the words of Erma Bombeck, “Shopping is a woman thing. It's a sport like football. Women enjoy the scrimmage, the noisy crowds, the danger of being trampled to death, and the ecstasy of the purchase.” If people think that ‘women are too materialistic and indulge in shopping’, I request them to rephrase the statement cause shopping is truly an emotional thing. Shopping is about attachment- we are ins...

Ladies, every one of us might have had the feeling when we adore certain things in life knowing that we will never be able to have it.  Let’s say, like the hot geography teacher in school who is way out of your league or the million dollar diamond ring that you always wanted to be proposed with (for which you need to marry someone like Jay-Z) or The Mouawad’s 1001 nights purse that makes your heart skip a beat whenever you see it.  Yes, there are things that we simply love but are just out of reach. We accept the hard reality of life and move on.  We compromise and settle down. But now, there’s something new to worry about –‘The guys’!!!  If you just go to Thamel or Pokhara or any happening places in the town, you will be heart broken by the fact that the number of good guys you see is almost NIL. By good guys, I am referring to guys who are ridiculously good looking, irresistibly charming, and in the scale of 8 or more.  P.S. I am not at all talking ab...